Well.

I’ve graduated. No Upper for me, but Lower works just fine too.

Been sick recently, coming down with a cough, slight fever and flu. I do hope those mozzies get wiped out real soon so they dont harm any more people. I dont know if I got it, but I sure do hope not. I hate injections.

It’s also time for me to let them know about him. I dont know how to tell them though. How do I start? When’s the right time to start? I need some time to think about this.

I feel so helpless.

I can only stay at home and wait for his call, fervently hoping he will call. At least that means he’s relatively ok.

I’m so afraid. Why does this have to happen when I’m going away? I’ll be back soon but anything can happen in those few days. I’m really worried and frightened. I don’t think I’ve been so afraid in my life. I want to see him when I come back. I want him to be safe and sound when I come back. I want him to smile at me when I come back. I want him to be healthy when I come back.

Please stay strong for me ok? I don’t want to cry anymore, I don’t want to worry anymore. I just want you to be safe and alright.

We will fight this together, but for now I can only leave you on your own to do the fighting. I am sorry. I really wish I can cancel my trip and stay at home, but I can’t. Now I may not even get to call you when I’m not around. It’s only 5 days, yet anything and everything can happen.

I pray, to whoever’s up there, please have a heart and let them both be alright. One’s worse than the other, but the other’s starting to get worse too. I’m really very frightened.

I love you.

I’m so thankful to have friends who are happy with who I am and dont try to make me into someone I’m not.

I dont blog much because I usually only write when I’m feeling upset or angry. But recently there has been a lack of updates because I feel happy. Blessed really, that friends like mine are friends with me. I hope I dont ever take them for granted like how I did last time when I was younger. That left me with a very bad experience and a horrible aftertaste. Things then snowballed way out of hand but I couldnt stop it nor reverse it.

Cheryl, Elicia, Nitz, Zeyo

These guys have either been there for me despite their busy schedule, or are my new-found close friends. I really am grateful that I found you guys because now I know friendships really can be forever if you work at it.

The previous account of a friend choosing to let go our friendship because of someone else taught me a great deal, but it also wrongly told me that most people cant be trusted to be there for you. I’ve learnt something over the 2 semesters this year. Friends really do come and go, but the ones who matter only seem to go. They lurk behind, silently waiting for a chance to prove themselves that they care for you.

Thank you.

These 4 years of school has taught me some precious lessons, and this is something not even 1st class honours can do. So what if I dont get a good honours? Friends I have made during this course of 4 years are enough. And hey, who’s to look down on someone with honours, 1st class or not?

Yup, another random post, mainly because I sometimes feel so tense and stressed, and partly because Cheryl wants me to blog. There you go.