Done something very wrong. I have been guarding myself against it for the past 3 or 4 months but then it still happened. No wait, it didn’t just happened. I had a big part in making it happen. I even wanted it to happen.

If certain people actually knew about what I did, the anger and fury that will be unleashed will be unlike anything seen.

I can’t believe I actually went ahead and did it even while thinking “No, I can’t” all the while. Apparently my determination has some training up to do.

I wonder what’s going to happen now. Certain doubts are still there, despite what happened. These doubts are in fact even more blaring in my mind now, after what happened. I feel guilty, but then happy on the other hand.

It’s confusing I know, to read something like what I’ve just written. But I’m confused myself too, and it doesn’t seem like things will get any clearer soon.