It’s officially over.

I got to let this go. It’s been affecting my life too much. I keep thinking about it, images flash past my mind every hour, it’s tiring. Everytime I start to think about it, my head and heart hurt. I’ve had enough of this seriously. I don’t understand how and why this can affect me so much. Never been like this before, even in the past when I was less mature and tend to over-think.

Now that it’s out in the open, I can safely put it aside and forget about this. Sure, it still hurts, a lot actually. But I now know the explicit reason behind it and I’m glad, in a way, that I didn’t go to the place I originally thought of going. If I went, this will never stop. I have to face it, I can’t run away from the issue anymore.

Friends have been asking me why I look so solemn and depressed the past few weeks. A close friend mentioned that I usually wear my emotions on my face, people can tell instantly when I’m happy and when I’m sad. I can’t help it though. Sometimes I think I’m still too immature, I tend to mull over things too much and let them affect me in the most serious way possible.

Now that this is over, I’m very glad I still have my friends around me. Sure, they might not agree with all of my decisions sometimes, but even when they don’t, they never left me alone to figure things out myself. They console, scold, prod and argue, and I really appreciate it. I know school’s going to keep us apart, for a long period of time, but I know that anytime I call, they’ll be there.

Thank you.