I should be jumping for joy right now. I should be shouting with excitement and happiness at this moment.
I have gotten what I want. Or almost have. It’s probably just a matter of time that I get it. This is something I have been wishing for since the start of the year. And now, it’s actually coming true.
I don’t know how to feel suddenly. I feel relieved and grateful that they remembered what was agreed upon at the start of the year. But now I feel an added sense of remorsefulness and disappointment because I would probably be leaving backlog and remnants of what I did behind for other people who might be taking my place, or even for existing people who already have loads to do. I feel bad.
Should I be happy? What if it’s not something I would be happy with after all? Maybe I made the wrong choice at the start of the year. I guess only time can tell now.
