Just needed some time to pen down my thoughts.
Writing has always been a form of stress relief for me. Maybe this came from when I was younger, I used to keep a diary (Hello Kitty, no less) and wrote down what happened to me during the day and how I felt. I realised I always felt better after writing down everything I felt.
My strength and energy levels are really depleting. I don’t feel excited or even nervous anymore. I need a sign, a sign which tells me I’m on the right track, but I’ve been waiting for such a long time. Maybe I just need some rest, or maybe I need someone to tell me it’s ok. But whatever it is, I know that right now, at this very moment, I’m just tired.
I’m very grateful for help given to me at times of need, even from people whom I never expected the help to come from. This really made me see that I’ve been so narrow-minded in the past, waiting to jump at any chance to condemn someone. I guess it’s all about opening my heart and allowing time to wash everything negative away. Someone recently said “We need to keep learning and not think that we already know everything.” I used to think I know much more than many other people, little did I know that my knowledge is really just the tip of the iceberg. There’s so much more that I don’t know and that I didn’t use to want to know. Now, I think it’s really time for me to do a personal revamp. Clear up old debris, install new beginnings.
Been contemplating a move lately, but this move means everything to me. If it succeeds, good. If it fails, woe be me.
