Haven’t been updating. Partly due to lack of time, partly because I didn’t feel the need to.
I think I’ve done it again. I’ve manipulated things such that now I have to bear the consequences of my actions. I use the word “manipulated” because I can’t think of any other word to describe the situation I landed myself in. I don’t think I had bad intentions when I first started, like what the word might mean in a certain way. I started off with the best of intentions, but somehow along the way, due to certain decisions I made, things turned out horrible.
I’m really sorry if now you have given up. I’m really sorry if now you don’t see the need anymore to tell me stuff. I’m really sorry if now you have second thoughts about me, about how I’m not quite who you think I am.
I guess I’m just trying to keep it alive. Unfortunately it backfired in the worst way possible.
I’m really sorry for what I’ve done. I know I can’t exactly turn back time now, you said you understand, but do you really? I get the sense that you are still upset, but I really don’t know how else I can take back the words I said or the decisions I made. I can only hope time will let you forget and forgive.
Let’s go back to the way we were ok?
